You have nothing to fear but fear itself -- very famous and profound words. Also very true words. Many spiritual teaches say there are only two true emotions, love and fear. I have come to know through my own life experience this is true. Whenever there is an emotion of anger, hurt, anxiety, hostility, judgment...what we perceive as negative...dig underneath the surface emotion and you will find fear. Fear of being hurt, fear of being judged, fear of losing something, someone, or yourself. Rid yourself of fear and you come to know no matter what happens in life, you will be all right. This is easier said than done in this human experience, but just begin to try and see for yourself.
I am dealing with a personal challenge right now...the ending of a love relationship. I have moments of anxiety, moments of fear that I will not find someone else with the good qualities this person who is leaving has; fear that I will live my life alone and not have someone "special" to give my love to who openly receives it and gives his love back; someone to share my life with; moments of anger because he chose not to talk with me about his feelings and gave me no voice; angry because I was committed to the relationship and he clearly was not...dig under the anger and I find feelings of hurt and feelings of not being worthy of the effort to work through whatever the challenge was...in another word, fear. I am grateful I have grown in my awareness enough to recognize when the fear rises. I then focus on my breathing, and reconnect to my soul and know I will be okay. I know not only from previous life experience, but also because I know the creative life source I call God is loving, only loving and that life will give me the experiences I need for my highest good. I learned many lessons through this relationship, lessons I can take with me on the rest of my journey. Lessons that will make my next love relationship that much more gentler, that much more flowing. Yes, I am sad when I think about not having this person in my life. He is truly an amazing man. My ego would like to think he chose fear over love and that he will regret this decision. But I know his soul has it's own path to take, perhaps it learned all it could from our relationship and now that relationship is complete. If our soul's were meant to continue on in this lifetime together, he would have made a different choice. Perhaps he would have chose to tell me what he was feeling and why. Perhaps he would have looked for other options than completely closing the door on love. I continue on my soul's journey looking for the lessons in every experience to achieve my highest good in this lifetime. All is a blessing.
Monday, May 25, 2009
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